"i am bad, and that's good"

just how many lessons can you get in one day? 

try in an hour.

let's start first with my day today. 

i went to my college today in hopes of enrolling myself for the second semester, and my last semester--since im graduating this march (hopefully) but i was unable to do so because one of my affiliations were not able to pass some requirements therefore as a member, my clearance was held as well. while that's not exactly my fault, i have nothing else to do but wait until all requirements are settled by that organization.

i was planning to head home after that since ive nothing else to do in school anymore but since i havent seen my friends for a while, i decided to stay and just spend time with them, talking and whatnot. it was entirely on impulse that one of them decided to watch a movie. it actually started with just one of us feeling hungry and wanting a snack. one thing led to another and we suddenly decided that we'll go to the mall and watch a movie.

we honestly had nothing in mind to watch so it was a whatever-is-playing decision on what to watch. wreck-it ralph was one of the choices.

wreck-it ralph is a disney film and surprisingly, and unexpectedly, i learned a lot from it. so here's me sharing this with you. in a nutshell, wreck-it ralph is about a "bad" guy who is tired of his title as the bad guy and prove himself to be a good guy. seems simple enough but it goes deeper than that.

thumbs up to disney for this.

so let's start with this first thing that inspired me: the race car that was made, broken, and remade--and everything that it signifies.

"in order to fix ourselves, we must first accept the fact that we are broken. and sometimes, the result after this realization is even better than the original."

of course, you cant fix something that isnt broken. but being broken doesnt exactly mean youre hopeless--or worse yet, trash. sometimes you have to accept that we arent perfect, only after accepting our mistakes can we move on to fix ourselves and become a better person. "breaking" is merely another way of overcoming our own weaknesses and emerging to be a stronger person with more stacks in experience.  so i guess what i want to say is that, nevermind being broken--everyone gets broken at some point in life, what makes us the person that we are is what we do about it. do we ignore it? do we allow ourselves to be disappointed about it? or do we overcome it?

second: ralph's "reputation"

"just because you and other people around you think or believe youre not doing any good doesnt mean you arent. we all have our roles to play--even if we and those around us dont understand it yet."

sometimes we dont understand why things happen. why us? why me? those are questions often asked when we feel as if nothing goes our way--as if the world is against us. but sometimes, these things are just lessons waiting to be learned. we dont have to understand why--at least not yet. not until we're ready to know why, and why us. these tasks, these roles, these experiences and lessons are given to us, given to you, not to burden you, but so you can overcome it and become a better person. and you know what? it's not a question of if you can overcome it. there is a certainty. you can, and you will, overcome it--there is a reason it was given to you--it's because you can. there is a reason these things happen, whether we understand it or not. i do believe everything happens for a reason. 

it doesnt matter if you dont understand yet why. what is important is that you will. eventually--trust me on this. life finds it's way to explain itself to you. you just need to be patient and be observant. sometimes the answers that you seek is just around a corner. it may not be in front of your eyes, but it is never far from you. after all, part of the lesson is how you get there--not just the lesson itself.

third: ralph

"sometimes people have to do what they have to do even though other people cant understand why they have to do it, even if it means appearing to be the "bad guy" in their eyes, even if it's not appreciated."

while the second "lesson" is about the situation, this one about you as a person, or the people around you. if you understood the lesson before this one, then this will lead you to understanding how people act sometimes. sometimes people do things that you dont understand and there will also come a time when you have to do some things that people wont understand--because you have to, and because it's the right thing to do. because it's your duty and there will be no other way and there are no other people who can do it--only you. sometimes doing the right thing is not the easiest thing and sometimes doing the right thing can risk a lot of things. your friends. your relationships. your reputation. or even you yourself. but you just got to do it--because it is the right thing, because it is what it should be, or maybe because it's the only way. rest assured that you will know it when this time comes and you will understand why and why you. you would know that you have to risk it--because just like in the first lesson, sometimes you need to break things to emerge with something new. something better. 

so maybe we need to think back on the people we originally thought were against us. maybe they were just trying to help us and we only didnt understand then. perhaps now, if we look back to it, maybe we'll find out they were only trying to do what's best for us. 

in our path to understand and search for ourselves, we take on a journey that is far more than we have initially imagined. sometimes its better than we hoped for or it may not be what we expected. and sometimes, after all that we do, after all that we experienced, we return to where we first started--only this time we are better, more knowledgeable, armed with experience and understanding. 

it's ironic really, life. to go so far only to return to the beginning. for you to appreciate what you have and who you are, you need to break away from what's familiar and venture into the unknown. because sometimes, the answer to the question you seek, is you. the only hard part is getting there. and sometimes, help comes from the most unlikely of places.

and now we've come to a full circle.

"searching for yourself takes you on a journey which will eventually, and certainly, bring you back to where you started: yourself."