this entry wont be a long one. it will be straightforward.
"dont let your happiness depend on something you may lose"
makes sense.
i was scrolling through my dashboard in tumblr when i stumbled upon that quote and then he comes to mind. i just realized then that after all the relationships i've been in, especially the last one, he is the first guy who i've no doubts of leaving me--which is a big difference from the last where everyday it's me waiting and expecting for him to straighten up and tell me he's done with me. that was how i felt more than 75% of the time that i was with him. in three years, i never grew out of that fear. look how well that turned out.
reading that quote made me realize that not even a year into our relationship, i've already settled into the comfort of the idea that he wont be leaving me anytime soon--hopefully ever.
im happy. he makes me happy.
and for the first time, i wasnt afraid of losing it, of losing him--of him leaving me. perhaps it's because he made sure to break me out of that way of thinking before we officially got together. im referring to the kind of thinking where nothing is permanent and everything is supposed to end one way or another--eventually. i still remember what he said:
im happy. he makes me happy.
and for the first time, i wasnt afraid of losing it, of losing him--of him leaving me. perhaps it's because he made sure to break me out of that way of thinking before we officially got together. im referring to the kind of thinking where nothing is permanent and everything is supposed to end one way or another--eventually. i still remember what he said:
"what is the sense of being in a relationship if youre just expecting for it to end anyway?"
he made me think. it was hard, to break out of my insecurities in regards to relationships. i'm not entirely sure if im 100% over it but im much better now.
i believe i've finally found someone who's earned--and is worth--my trust.
lucky me~
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